Assalamu'alaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh
After so long of not blogging, well i had been busy with work the last 2 months and then there goes of raya preparation. Talking about raya preparation, this year i had given the opportunity to celebrate my Raya Aidilfitri in Singapore.
Trust me, my journey to Singapore wasn't a fun one. After work, i rush to Terminal Bersepadu Selatan but made a pipstop at my friend house and break fast over there. Thankyou Kika and her boyfriend for sending me to the TBS. Kalau tak ada korang, iolls tak tahu macam mana aku nak sampai ke TBS. Grab and Uber have no chill during the Ramahdan. Busy memanjang .
Alhamdulilah i manage to sampai Singapore selamat tapi a lots of delay. Pity papa had to wait for the daughter until didn't sleep the whole night sebab as i told him, i will be arriving around 2pm. YES I WAS SUPPOSE TO ARRIVE that timing but nothing is impossible . Things when over my expectation. That case i arrived woodlands,Singapore at 5am. When i reach home, it was already Subuh, dawn. Oh my god, sumpah i was so exhausted and i thought of staying up to raya prayer unfortunately i fall asleep and wake up at 10am.
Get up and iron my siblings and papa baju raya. It's weird actually, i am used to 7.30am in the morning of the commotion in the kitchen at my grandparents house and my mek waking up all the cucu cicits to wake up and clean all the beds and take a shower and get ready for raya.
Its 360 degrees different from Singapore. The meriah and the kecoh start at noon, everyone start to find their shoes,samping,tudung,songkok,capal. Pening kakak have to find all the solution however i'm happy. Happy enough to be with my papa and adik after 5years not having to raya with them.
After the whole day collecting pocket money, hey i'm still valid for pocket money okay. Still a student and a cute one.
But this cute lady have to continue her journey back to Kelantan on her second raya. Exhausted but after seeing all the faces that i want to see. Gosh i am happy, all of my tiredness dah hilang. I really have fun traveling. Until now i can't believe how independent i am and all grown up.
This year is very challenging year for me. I usually have my ups and downs but this year, i can see only my downs. I take all of this as a challenge to me, even it hurts me a lot.
I know my decision is not the best one, and i know i will regret it someday but now. I only want to be happy, i decided to choose my live, my happiness because that's the way it should be. I had enough of crying, taking my anger out of control and cursing and cursing, i just need my own space and start from zero back to achieve what i want in life.
And no one is going to stop me, yes aku pengecut sebab kept running and running from the reality tapi aku lari demi kebaikan aku and i think that is not a problem.
New adventure awaits me outside there. So stay tune !
Yes, my mami and my papa divorce when i was i kid so yeah, my family grew bigger after that same as my love for my family
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